I should have noticed this 30 years ago. I must be blind.
I have always been enraptured by music, from before I can remember. I do remember playing records over and over since I was 5, dancing like a little wildman to them... I have been called by music all my life, and yet while I can play a little on a few different instruments, it never occurred to me that I should make music for a living.
Is everyone like this? Does everyone love music more than anything? Is everyone enthralled by a hundred different artists? I am well into my 40's and I don't know anyone else my age who seems to be hooked by music the way I have always been. I've tried talking to various people about music but I can tell they are not interested. If someone talked to me about music the conversation would never end.
Is this some defect in me? It doesn't feel like a defect. It feels like I have music flowing through me, within me, and I speak it as my native tongue. It feels joyous and sad and all sorts of things. The music is in me and it feels like god.
